My End

Finally, my time has come...
*Third stage : hair fall

The problem begin!

February, 28th
No transport to buy ticket...nevermind, papa will settle it for me

February, 29th
Going back to Shah Alam and will be reaching Shah Alam the next morning

March, 1st
My kodok is still with Uncle Kamal....what I should do there without my car? Packing for PERKASA trip to Kuala Lipis

March, 2nd
Early morning have to wait for bus.....7am need to reach the faculty for gathering before leaving

March, 4th
Reach Shah Alam in the middle of the night. No transport, how to go home?

March, 5th
Early morning, need to be at HTAR for my monthly blood and urine test. Again have to wait early for bus. As I came back from HTAR, need to attend class. But the class is clashed with another class, and I still can't get to register yet!

March, 6th
Class from morning to evening, I can't collect my 24hrs urine test, so

March, 7th
Start collecting urine for 24 hrs urine test. Today only I get my car back

March, 8th
Send my urine test to HTAR.....come home, go to class at 5pm (SUCK)

Overall.....I'm going to get hypertension in the first week because I got no transport!

My Result

Yesterday a friend of mine messaged me "my name, I down la, I failed my Separation paper". I answered sabar la, what to do? You already did the mistake.You have to swallow it! Actually, yesterday, I was happy to see my result. It is DAMN like shit... I was happy because I waited for 12 hours just to look at my result and once I saw it. It was LIKE THIS!

How great this is. I failed 2 paper with E's......it is E okay, we are not talking about D+ or C- !!! 0.67...what did I do for 1 semester? I got another 1 more semester to perform...is it possible for me to get 3.00? I think I can, but...

Love is bullshit

There is no such thing as love....yeah, you may think your in love, but think back....how on Earth you can fall for someone that doesn't have any connection with you? It may be an obsession like how some people obsessed with chocolate or animals. So, think it twice before saying that you have fall in love...there is no such thing!

Vanilla Coklat~

I love this drama....it is so sweet!!!! If only I am that lucky! Well, life isn't a drama, and life will not be as sweet as in the film. I Love En. Sufri but, dream will always remain as a dream. He will not give a damn on what I wish for. Just accept the faith!

My God and Me

Do I really have this conversation before?

Allah   Benarkah apa yang engkau perkatakan wahai?
Me      Benar, Ya Tuhanku.
Allah   Kiranya engkau tidak kisah jika aku menurunkan sakit kepada engkau tatkala engkau sihat?
Me      Benar, Ya Tuhanku. Aku rela diturunkan apa sahaja sakit, kerana sakit itu nikmat dari mu Ya Tuhan!
Allah   Engkau juga tidak kisah tidak punya suami mahupun anak?
Me     Ya benar, Tuhanku. Aku rela! Aku cuma menginginkan melihat bagaimanakah dunia ini yang sering diperkatakan oleh semua orang.
Allah   Sekiranya aku menurunkan bala kepada engkau, adakah engkau akan memungkiri janji engkau untuk mentaatiku?
Me     Tidak sesekali aku akan menyekutukanmu bahkan aku akan sering bersujud kepadamu, kerana aku sangat menyayangimu Ya Tuhan
Allah   Mahukah engkau berjanji untuk mengkotakan janji-janji engkau serta tidak memungkirinya
Me      Aku berjanji akan mengkotakan setiap apa yang aku perkatakan. Terima kasih Ya Tuhan!

So, I did make a promise? And all this while, I keep breaking it? I'm very sorry Allah SWT. This is what I should pay for asking to be here right? Thank you so much.......What I could wish for is that, if only I wasn't born in the first place!

We handicaps~

Handicap people don't love each other, don't dream of wearing beautiful wedding dress, or have kids....we handicaps should think what to do to see GOD. Come on people, lets stop bullshitting each other. We are created to be forever alone! I learned my lesson and you should to!